Capture Your Grief - Day 19: Music

When Elisa was diagnosed, a friend shared the below song with me, "I Will Carry You".   It is beautiful and articulates so well all of our feelings with our choice to carry Elisa knowing she would not likely make it to birth.  The sadness of the thought of losing her, and everything we would not get to do with her, and the love we had for her while carrying her, and will continue to have for her the rest of our lives.

"I Will Carry You (Audrey's Song)"

There were photographs I wanted to take

Things I wanted to show you

Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes

Who could love you like this?People say that I am brave but I'm not

Truth is I'm barely hanging on

But there's a greater story

Written long before me

Because He loves you like this

So I will carry you

While your heart beats here

Long beyond the empty cradle

Through the coming years

I will carry you

All my life

And I will praise the One Who's chosen me

To carry you

Such a short time

Such a long road

All this madness

But I know

That the silence

Has brought me to His voice

And He says?

I've shown her photographs of time beginning

Walked her through the parted seas

Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes

Who could love her like this?

I will carry you

While your heart beats here

Long beyond the empty cradle

Through the coming years

I will carry you

All your life

And I will praise the One Who's chosen Me

To carry you