Learning to take care of myself you could say is one of the "positives" that have come out of the mess that is child loss. Of course, like you hear many loss parents say, I would give back any progress to have my children back, but I thank Luca and Elisa every day that if the can't be here, that they have left me with the gift of their love, through self-care. I have learned that grief changed me and will continue to change me. And how I feel or what works for me right now might be completely different than it was two months ago, and again might change in another two months. And that is OK
So over the last few month's I have written. But now I feel like writing again.
We are coming up on October, pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. And I look back to the last October when I participated in the "Capture Your Grief Project" That was an incredibly helpful and healing process for me. To talk about my babies, but also to have focused prompts on what to write and think about that.
So with that, I plan to be involved again this year.
I can tell you already, I know this year will be different. Last year I was still very much in the phase of early grief. The sadness literally engulfed me. I needed to do the project. I NEEDED to talk about my girls and I needed to talk about my pain.
This year I go into it with a different mindset. Don't get me wrong I still miss Luca and Elisa every day, and I still wish every single moment that things had gone differently, but my grief has changed, and I imagine, if I decide to do this project again next year, it will change again.
So with that, I dust off my blogging, and you can look forward to some more consistent writing from me, at least through the month of October :)
The Capture Your Grief Project will begin October 1. Head over to Carly Marie's Project Heal to see more details
http://carlymarieprojectheal.com/capture-your-grief-2016
